So the big thing everyone wants to know…
[quote style=”boxed”]No. I don’t have cancer. In fact, I don’t have a tumor at all. [/quote]
It looks a lot like, but not quite enough to be 100% certain, myositis ossificans. Because of some irregularities they do want to keep a very close eye on it to make sure nothing changes.
So in terms of prognosis, when someone gets a cancer diagnosis it ranges from you have a few days to live up to you’ll make a full recovery. Obviously the former is terrible and I am so so grateful that I will not have to have that conversation with my wife and kids. Unfortunately, the latter is not an option for me.
My muscle is irreparably damaged. The best that I can hope for is that over time my limp might go away. I will always get tired when walking and my strength will always be less than it was 4 months ago.
For now I will continue with my pain management regimen and continue to have xrays every few months to check on it and see if it has stopped growing. Once it does they will run tests and prepare for the next step. Eventually, I will have to have surgery to remove the lump and 1-2 doses of radiation to ensure that it doesn’t come back.
Hopefully by the end of the year I will be done with the whole process and see what my “new normal” is.
So there you have it. It is a bit anti climatic. I thought I would be a lot more excited to get these results. But I am VERY excited to know how much everybody cares. Your calls, texts, tweets, FB posts, Instagram comments, etc have been so appreciated. Most of the concerns mentioned in my original post are the same for the foreseeable future except now we have some certainty (which is a huge relief).